Fade Into The Background

I was thinking today, why am I attracted to the guys I'm attracted to. This one boy just walked more like strolled back into my life this past week, and it's got me all caught up and thinking about should of could of would haves. And it sucks because he is a certified ass-hole. I know it, my friends know it, hell, he knows it too. Why am I so drawn to that type of boy though. And he ain't even all that as a matter of fact. He may have that bad boy swagger but as far as physicalities I've seen better. It's hard for me to accept the fact that I'm the type of girl to fall for the bad boy when I wanted to believe the good guys all come out first, but I've never been attracted to the good boy. I find no appeal. I mean lately its changing, most of the guys I've decided to talk to are dancers which means that they have to at least be a little mannered but still assholes deep down. I don't know.

And I'm so determined for the chase. I always want and need what I can't have, and when I can finally have it, I get bored and it isn't fun anymore. It sucks that I'm like that.

I guess they aren't exactly the guys for me, I want to one day find a day and a boy that I'll never be bored with and it's a constant adventure and learning experience with. It's hard to break old habits and find new ones but I know it takes time.

Love can't be rushed, and you shouldn't have to look for it. It will find you, in due time. When it happens it happens.




unless you're filipino you won't understand, but its soo cute
but it's a good description of what I want right now.
not the guy but the description of the song.
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props to filipinos cheesey but dope.




h0lla.